Thursday, April 29, 2004 \ 7:50 PM
you people should go read;or rather just HAVE TO read
how guoming describes his 2.4 run today.
its absolutely hilarious.
with no doubt at all.
got me looking like an idiot giggling infront of the white box that lays before me now.
click on my link "ibrahim/gm"
and make yourself look like an idiot too.
laughters a good medicine anyway :)
so read.
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oh yes JO YOU OWE ME TEN.
and i donated TEn cents to you! :P
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im soakin wet now.
in chinese u'll say luo tang ji
walked thru the rain to get home just now.
i swear ill bring a brolly nxt time.
it was raining elephants just now;
now ill say its raining giants.
anyway went studying at hougang point again;
the freaking whistle was going on but thank god for me discman.
and the stupid hougang sec ahlians ahbengs were playin w straws.god.
anyway cheryn keeps thinking she did badly for sports day;
i think she did great :)
you gave your best and you got individual champ!
real prouda you dahling. -BIGhugs-
i knw im not gona make it in time for midyears :(
sighs
im dead. but who cares. ive got half a year to o levels.
okay maybe just 5 months.
hahah.. off to bathe; eat and nerd.
OH YES. and to watch william hung.
toodlesS~
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with a fever and bad gastric pains
and i miss recess clique so much
:(
anyways i did really badly for sportsday yestie
really disappointed in myself :(
RAHHH FUCKIT
MMHMM midyrs in oneweek ! how sucky is that.
lets go study together on saturday okay
or sunday :)
FOR YOU, MY BESTIE WESTIE :D
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
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Wednesday, April 28, 2004 \ 6:16 PM
everyone shouldve watched tiffany & lisain the junior singing finals of starsearch.
god sucha blowaway performance; especially tiffany.
with the voice she has; she could win american idol easily man.
its no wonder how she got fulll marks for that.
her performance only makes one want for more.
and shes only ten!
gosh.
powerful.
Share my life
Take me for what I am
Cuz I'll never change
All my colors for you
Take my love
I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are
And everything that you do
I don't really need to look
Very much farther
I don't wanna go
Where you don't follow
I don't hold it back again
This passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide
Chorus:
Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Must I imagine you there?
Don't walk away from me
I Have Nothing
Nothing
Nothing, if i don't have you (you-oo, you-oo, you)
You see through
Right to the heart of me
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love (mm..)
I never knew
Love like I known it's with you
Will the memories survive?
One I can hold on to
I don't really need to look
Very much farther
I don't wanna go
Where you don't follow
I don't hold it back again
This passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide
You're the love I remember forever
Repeat Chorus (2X)
Don't walk away from me
Don't walk away from me
Don't you dare walk away from me
I have nothing
Nothing
Nothing, if I don't have you
You, if I don't have you
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cheryns running now at tp stadium.
good luck bestie! :)
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crrently doin coordinate geometry.
i admit its getting easier for me to do the questions.
but still;
i hate exams.
so much to study so little time.
and i wonder why im still sitting here blogging.
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anyway im bored.
skipped school today;
todays sports day and im NOT enthu about it.
so here i am; id rather study
hahah...
okay so once again
im bored
and i have a numb leg.
and yes koon is online surprisingly,
i think he's sick.
anyway koon,
BLOG!
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took this from stephanies blog. quite cute.
haha
| Doctor Unheimlich has diagnosed me with Nicole tham shu xian's Lurgy | |
| Cause: | overwork |
| Symptoms: | turning to stone, horn growth on forehead, revolving neck, high blood pressure |
| Cure: | exercise |
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Tuesday, April 27, 2004 \ 9:36 PM
just came home from studyinghougang points coffeebean is a really nice place to study at.
right jo? :)
finally started on my preperations today.
quite productive i have to say;
and jo wasnt that noisy!haha
did amath & chinese.
and my dad doesnt believe i cant study with music.
shrugs
im off`
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Monday, April 26, 2004 \ 10:11 PM
GAME OF CHESS WITH CHERYN VILAI. SHES THE WHITE ONE.- gone with the windd`
gosh i cant believe some ppl can be THAT unoriginal
and copy from my friends blog.
god get a life. at least change some stuff right?
its darn obvious tht ure copying and its obvious tht u copied from her
cuz your date's more recent!
but anyway
im still neutral
just hv more originality.
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okay didnt get the chance to come online yesterday
cuz i watched teevee all the way until i fell asleep/
anyway
sunday was really fun.
supposed to meet up w koon and kaingan at 850 in the morning
and the person who msged me "dont be late tmr"
was late. but supposedly not his fault lah.
haah anyway so i met up with koon
and we went to his church.
he has a really cute church; with a hyper lead singer
but most of the time i can hear their music but not the singin
and out of all the songs they sang i only knew one.
lols.
ok after their youth; i joined in their cg.
felt quite okay i guess cuz all are from beatty yep.
they had an interesting cg.
kaingan koon & clemence kept wanting to sabo me..lil asses.haha
joined them for lunch at tpc..
then kaingan was like "eh call the girl anfu say cute one lah"
which was cheryn. so i did and she came, clemence was like
wah your fren so on one.
but anfu ran home first.
hahah then we wenta junxiongs house to slack.
his mom is pretty scary
and i didnt know he was so good in guitar.
so i took a few cool photos of him playin the guitar..
went jammin with them after that.
kaingan was basically just burping into the mic and asking me to sing.
ryn left early cuz of i dont-know-what.
hahah and they stopped jammin soon after.
i think they waited w me for my mom to give me a final ans on where to meet up with her so we went to the roti prata shop to have a drink.
kaingan & junxiong had this milo dinosaur thingy, looked quite yummy.
we talked, and i laughed ALOT. gosh those ppl are darn funny man,
had so much fun with them. and clemence used my phone to msg someone *glares*
ok shortly after everyones dad started to call and so did my mom so we set off for home. fun filled day? hahah.
okay today. gosh this is gettin wordy.
today is monday, most boring day of the week but there was ONE
particular period that wasnt boring at all right sharini?
hahah someone in our class is afraid of teetoos! haha.
its a guy too!
he saw the spider and he was like "barry help me kill!kill!"
he was throwing his file & pencil case on his table and started jumping about.
i just laughed
i told sharini
and we all started laughing till our stomachs hurtt
so now we've got something to blackmail that smartass already.hahah
okay so after school; i had shifting.
the new bandroom is quite alright.
but surprisingly we shifted very fast this time..
scottie counted 66 boxes,
when i counted it was 68.
when mr tan counted it was 67.
haha weird right..
okay thts it. longest entry in MONTHS. :)
toodless
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Saturday, April 24, 2004 \ 3:58 PM
You can't call this musicINSPIRATION
William Hung (Koch)
By YEOW KAI CHAI
1/2*
IT'S a Hung jury.
The first (and most probably last) album by the American Idol reject shouldn't be reviewed as music but as a fabulous party gimmick at showing up the baloney of fame.
If anything, the bloke is pretty blameless insofar as this novelty CD lacks any culpable intention on his part.
'I just want to say thank you for buying my album,' he mutters in his inimitably defanged voice in the spoken-word introduction called Words Of Gratitude.
Well, here's a confession: I didn't pay for this review copy, but I was still driven to tears nonetheless.
It's not so much because of his tone-deaf, screeching massacre of Ricky Martin's She Bangs and Enrique Iglesias' Bailamos, but because of the immeasurable magnitude of his generosity and/or ignorance.
He makes so-so singers Martin and Iglesias sound like Pavarotti.
In the inspirational thoughts littered throughout, he confesses that he 'may not be the best singer in the world', but adds that he sings from his heart.
While it's initially hard to be cruel, after listening to the entire album, it soon becomes very, very easy.
As expected, he executes sensationally off-key renditions of the Elton John classics Can You Feel The Love Tonight and Rocket Man.
If we ever needed to fend off hostile aliens on earth, playing these versions at maximum volume is guaranteed to decimate all the nasty green invaders.
The best song here? His jaw-dropping take on R Kelly's I Believe I Can Fly - all wavery and gossamer - could well have been the theme song for the now-extinct flightless bird, the dodo.
So here it is: Inspiration is a Grade A clunker from start to finish - its only good sounds are the beautiful moments of silence in between tracks.
In other words, this CD is perfect as a coaster, a frisbee or a birthday present for your dearest enemy. Half a star for sheer audacity.
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okay i skipped tuition.
yay?
gosh. did my dnt folio anyway;
came up with around 2 new designs.
my sketching sucked,
or rather sucks this year.
whats wrong w my hand. last year my sketching was
nice.
arghs i just hope that edmund yeo freak aint gona point his finger at my drawing
and platantly tell me my ideas and sketching sucks.
or ill hate him for life :)
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Friday, April 23, 2004 \ 5:33 PM
having a freaking bad headache right now.today was an okay day.
compo lesson was boring
went for cedar sports day after that.
those poor kids..out of all the days it could rain it rained today.
anyway leopard house cheer was good;
panther has dropped so much since we left.
and i saw mr yang; how cute.
hahah wearin a little yellow party hat!
had a lil talk with mr gwee,
so many teachers fell ill & left cedar.
some changed school,
some retired.
i realised times changed so much..
even cedar has changed so much.
the teachers that once taught us looked so frail now,
even mr gwee. the glow just isnt there anymore!
can see he's tired already..
anyway IM tired.hahah
alright im outta here,
go sleep awhile then ill decide whether i wna go tuition.
or mop floor.
with a headache.
toodles
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Thursday, April 22, 2004 \ 7:50 PM
oh yahhaha i realised fantasia looks like a platypus.
and barry manilow looks like an anteater.
JENNIFER HUDSON IS OUT.
yayness! i hate her altho shes got a gd voice
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im tired.
* yawn
todays listening compre was alright lars.
can pass, i thk.
hahah okay im off`
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Wednesday, April 21, 2004 \ 9:01 PM
oh yes how could i forget.the most interesting thing of this week.
Nicoll Highway collapsed.
and my mom just nagged at me.
Also, i found out that Guoming & i met before.
When we were young.
i have no memory of it.
my mom knows his aunt & mom.
Liz thinks our moms are related.
Just because they're both Chengs.
Interesting.
For More Information, Please visit Guomings Blog.
Thank You.
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Today was an interesting day.
Physics practical was fun.
We played with notice boards.
We played with paper.
We played with pins and a glass block.
Drawing a graph was fun too.
After that i went out.
i had alot of laughs with Shirleen and Cheryn.
We ate at Sakae Sushi.
I found the guy who serve us ugly.
He had quite an irritating face too.
A CJC boy sat next to me on the bus.
He fell asleep.
I think he was very tired.
Because he almost fell asleep on my shoulder.
If the bus did a sharper turn that would happen.
But luckily it didnt.
What a relief.
Now i am home.
Therefore i conclude;
Today is an interesting day.
And yes, Narcissus is still a brand of mushrooms.
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Tuesday, April 20, 2004 \ 10:30 PM
narcissus is a brand of mushrooms.- gone with the windd`
When somebody loves you
It's no good unless she loves you
All the way
Happy to be near you
When you need someone to cheer you
All the way
Taller than the tallest tree is
That's how it's got to feel
And deeper than the deep blue see is
Now that's how deep it goes if its real
When somebody needs you
It's no good unless she needs you
All the way
Through the good or lean years
And through all the in between years
Come what may (come what may)
Who knows where the road will lead us
Only a fool would say
But if you let me love you
It's for sure I'm gonna love you
All the way
Darlin', all the way
(Who knows where the road will lead us)
(Only a fool would say)
But if you let me love you
It's for sure I'm gonna love you
All the way
All the way...
(All the way...)
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okay somethign really really comical happened in class today.
and im not saying it
only huishan clara terence & i know.
wahahahs thinkin of it only;
and just looking.
i wana puke. literally!
gosh i cant understand how someone can be that way.
sickening.
shes like the first person who is UGLY
and thinks that she is PRETTY.
above that
she thinks ppl..aiyah forget it.
if ive got to do all that itll be never ending.
hahahahahaha. i think this should be called Puke Factor.
god.
anyway had a fruitful assembly period today
besides knowing the Puke Factor.
they invited Royston Tan..this director who directed Fifteen if any of you knows.
yep his short films were damn touching
some girls actually started to tear watching it.
i felt for it
particularly the 2nd one;
its damn sweet. a guy making a short film just for the girl.
and the stuff that the guy was sayin to the girl..
just hit me.sighs i miss(?) him.
oh well anyway
i wish i could find the films online- love them
anyway i signed up to work with royston tan.
i find him sucha cool guy and hes got a nice voice right siying?
haha.. yeps/
but they will shortlist people, i dont know how.
i certainly hope i get shortlisted..
thts abt it i guess.
khai yinglai & marilyn didnt come today.
lessons were alright today.
for once i didnt sleep! hahah..
summary writing was alright as well.
yeps.
sharini changed her hairstyle today,
letting down her fringe.
hahah ah what new things can this irresistable girl get?
toodles
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Monday, April 19, 2004 \ 8:48 PM
was pondering on what World-known Retard Shirleen Sim was saying a few days back."Goodness. grasshoppers have become humorous."
thinking of it just makes me laugh.
However the next day, i started thinking. "What about praying mantis?"
if you dont get it, dont try to laugh. private joke
interesting facts :
barry was reading the Bible in class today
and reciting John 3:16 "For God so loved the world..."
Fajar & Dharwin were trying to be priests. *rolls eyes*
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and now i'm all alone again
nowhere to turn, no one to go to
without a home, without a friend
without a face to say hello to
but now the night is near
now i can make-believe he's here
Sometimes i walk alone at night
when everybody else is sleeping
i think of him
and then i'm happy
with the company i'm keeping
the city goes to bed
and i can live inside my head
on my own
pretending he's beside me
all alone
i walk with him 'till morning
without him
i feel his arms around me
and when i lose my way
i close my eyes
and he has found me
in the rain
the pavement shines like silver
all the lights
are misty in the river
in the darkness
the trees are full of starlight
and all is see
is him and me
forever and forever
and i know
it's only in my mind
that i'm talking to myself
and not to him
and although
i know that he is blind
still i say
"there's a way for us"
i love him
but when the night is over
he is gone
the river's just a river
without him
the world around me changes
the trees are there
and everywherethe streets
are full of strangers
i love him
but everyday i'm learning
all my life
i've only been pretending
without me
his world will go on turning
a world that's full of happiness
that i have never known
i love him
i love him
i love him
but only on my own
interesting song.nice lyrics
on my own
heard it on..whats that show again..
some talent show lars.
lols..the girl was great.
yep
anw i bought this adidas shower gel just now.
pretty good, & its only 5 bucks
haha..but my body still aches!
everytime i laughed or bend today, i went "ouch!" after that.
oh well
nadia & sharini was like that too.
and fajar seems a lil' drunk & desperate today.
lol..recover soon!
oh yeah he did this melayu thing on my name.
look at this see if you understand.
N-nantikan kadatargannya di pagi hari
I- indahnya dunia oleh kehadirannya
C-cantik seorang dewi mewarnai surgawi
O-oh hatiku berdebar-debar kerenanya
L- lamuran di siang hari
E-enak dipandang meggoda hati.
i dont know if i spelled some words correctly.
tell me if its wrong.
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Sunday, April 18, 2004 \ 9:33 PM
oh yes how could i forget.youth service was absolutely great.
i have never found so much relevance in youth service before
except today.
i guess some bad patches
leads me to learning more about God & His love for me.
yeps.
something really funny happened to me today.
and im not saying it
its kinda embarassing tho- hahah.
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okay
its irritatingly hot.
im sweating profusely as im sitting here typing away;
gratitude goes to my non-aircon room.
was watching NKF just now..
pity those people who have low paying jobs & sickness.
some cant even work and their family left them.
sighs..and i wondered what will happen if one day i become like them?
anyway i felt compelled to donate.
so i did so, thru my hp. yeps
and i got $1 off coffee bean for doing that haha..
so did my aunt & mom!
went out with my family after church today.
basically had a wonderful time if my mind wasnt somewhere else.
cheryn knows and i know.
altho it wasnt as bad as yesterday,
but its still something
oh well; gotta let some things be.
cant control it also.
sorry to those people who msged me yesterday
& i was kinda like dao-ing you guys.
esp jeremy soh; think i kinda lashed out at you a few times.
just wasnt feeling like my usual self.
now everytime i eat i feel like puking already.
but thanks for all you peoples concern
siying, khairul, cheryn. thanks alot. :) -hugs-
khai- i will try to keep my promise as much as possible,
but if i really cant take it; ill just go ahead and do it.
maybe it will feel better.
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Saturday, April 17, 2004 \ 11:25 PM
nxt friday is cedar sports day.hmms maybe gona go back with shumin.
:) miss that school so much.
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somethings are unexpected
anyway im real tired now.
5 items today was crap.
but thank god my teacher in charge was mdm tan.
i seriously think im not fated with shuttle run.
last year i fell down
this year i injured my toe.
and i got a D.
craps-
pc was fun today..
the guy was darn funny; couldnt stop laughing at his jokes.
sharini our broadcaster was asked to go for a sports officer interview.
haha
interesting.
never said.
my aunt got into a car accident recently.
thank god shes fine.
but the car..i dont know. sigh-
anw stop here.
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So strong and so secure
But all you left were memories
The feelings are no more
Like flowers in a big field
All died and blown away
The letters and the pictures are all that will remain
But every moment (Every moment)
Of every day (Every day)
I wanna see you (Wanna see you)
I wanna say
No one loves you like I love you
No one needs you the way I do
No one knows you like I knows you
No one hears you the way I do
So many years of memories
Supressed beyond recall
The feelings once unbroken
Seem silent and so small
But every moment (Every moment)
Of every day (Every day)
I wanna see you (Wanna see you)
I wanna say
No one loves you like I love you
No one needs you the way I do
No one knows you like I knows you
No one hears you the way I do
But every moment (Every moment)
Of every day (Every day)
I wanna see you (Wanna see you)
I wanna say
No one loves you like I love you
No one needs you the way I do
No one knows you like I knows you
No one hears you the way I do
No one loves you like I love you
No one needs you the way I do
No one knows you like I knows you
No one hears you the way I do
HI NEEEEKKKK :)
we are going for tuition WITHOUT YOU !
anyways just came here to say that :
WE LOVE YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUU :)
more than anyone else in the world.
-joe and cheryn
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have come to a conclusion.
cant trust anyone anymore.
fuck this world of liars.
WHATEVER.
i might as well be better off dead.
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Friday, April 16, 2004 \ 9:00 PM
had a great day with darlings shir ryn & jo.:) have not laughed so much since i dont know when.
love you girlfriends so much. thanks for the wonderful day! :)
but sorta got into this weird mood after ryn got off my bus.
i started to think again
maybe everything is just me? i dont know.
maybe im the root of every problem?
maybe im just the one whose drifting away from those people.
maybe im just the one who didnt get the message clear across to him?
it hurts deeply to lose such a dear friend? one that would have been so close.
god i dont know whether im right.
but i know,
it doesnt feel good.
somehow i feel unworthy.
unworthy of so many wonderful friends;
so many wonderful things that happened to me.
i dont deserve it. -sighs-
ive done so much wrong in my life,
i guess thats why nothing ever seems right this year.
i dont even know why this is getting to me so much.
it hurts inside.
painfully
anyway. got a nice song here.
when i fall in love
When I fall in love
It will be forever
Or ill never fall in love
In a restless world
Like this is
Love is ended before its begun
And too many
Moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun
When I give my heart
It will be completely
Or ill never give my heart
And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you
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Thursday, April 15, 2004 \ 8:43 PM
"It would appease me if you could kindly hand in your Spontaneous Writing on time. Love, Sharini"in which is replied
" We do not wish to appease you. Love, the class of 4e3. "
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woohoo.
the pics work.
anyway have been listening into my old songs.
:) feels good to relive my past sometimes
yeps.
oh yes how could i ever forget.
for once im gona do this and i hope never again.
MR LEE YOU FAGGOT.
how could you not give us the key just to take a few balls?
yes in the beginning we had no teacher so i understand.
but when you said a teacher was needed, we brought one to you.
AND YOU STILL DIDNT WANT TO GIVE US THE FUCKING KEY.
whats that? going back on your word? what policy SHIT
whole pile of rubbish reasons you gave us.
if relief teachers could not hold the key;
how come that time ms liew could even SIGN IT OUT?
finally when 4e3 is enthu about having pe,
we're deprived of it.
whats more, you even told your sec 5s not to let the sec 4s play.
when your sec 5s are the one who asked my cls guys to play.
& mr ng. let me just put this to you platantly. you suck
act fucking big shot, HOD so what? PE period just cuz mr ang aint here
doesnt mean we gotta do your AMATH.selfish bastard. papaya just had to obey you like a dog too when she was the one who let us go down.
ure doing nothing but giving us an unbalanced lifestyle.
and before i forget,
those minority bunch of fuckheads who just cant keep their mouth shut,
thinking that if they do so ppl might think that they're mute,
you dont have to say "i dont understand why cant all of you just stay in class and do your work"
i think you just dont understand the meaning of class spirit too.
& just in case you didnt know,
the people you're trying to get close to actually hate you.
period.
fuckshitheads
thank you jo for reminding me
& thanks to sharini who has kindly msged me to remind me
to bring my library book,
to do my spont writing,
to complete my amath hw,
and to study for ss test.
i shall appoint her to be my personal secretary & organizer.
shes a neat freak. she does a wonderful job.
packing my table from time to time.
& informing me what i have on that day.
so sharini.. the GOOD part of this entry is dedicated to you :)
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I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.
Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
im 35% evil. hm interesting. im 65% angelic~
anyway today was an interesting day
first period.
pe.
mr ang didnt come
lotsa things happen
quite pissing to see teachers bow down to the mercy of people above them.
havent they got any pride at all?
gosh.
but im glad mrs low DOES have pride.
she told us some stuffs
about the dark side of this school;
stuff that students shouldnt know.
she told us cuz she couldnt take it anymore.
im glad she did
we learnt alot.
im so glad there are teachers who stand up for their rights.
but sad that there are teachers who just platantly suck up
to their HODs, Principal. boot lickers. lick horse ass.
and extremely sad that there are racist teachers
& those that make remarks to hurt people.
amaths 10minutes test was today.
might be able to get 10/10 again.
hopefully
got back my chinese test which i took yesterday,
74/100.
one more mark to a1.
sigh- could have done better if i studied the night before
instead of in the morning.
had a freaking headache in class today.
but who cares anyway.
saw our class photos.
utterly terrible,
only sharini looked nice.
ah there she goes showing this paragraph to everyone. =p
hahah..
the only good thing that happened today was band.
for once i dont regret going.
lizhen & i were pondering on whether we should go.
im glad we did.
the attendance was wonderful.
40 people turned up,
surprise surprise.
and mr tan was in a good mood;
the aryadni woman came so i need not call her for the pieces again.
altho the music wasnt good,
at least there was life in band today. im so glad.
i hope it stays this way :)
but like what my "lesbians" say,
life in the band wont be same as the past anymore.
but we can make the best out of what we have now right? (:
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Wednesday, April 14, 2004 \ 5:56 PM
it makes me wonder if anyone knows me deep inside at allmy life just isnt the same anymore.
everythings changing,
too fast for me to handle.
everyones changing,
too fast for me to take.
sometimes i dont even feel that i belong anymore.
other times i even feel that im not wanted there.
i thought i was thinking too much;
now i dont think i was.
no, it isnt everyones dear-usual-bgr problems.
but because of some things that im unable to mention here.
i dont know.
i dont know what to do anymore.
i simply dont.
made my heart weep,
got me into a whirling state of mind;
i just want someone to lead me out of this madness,
leave everything behind.
to bring me somewhere, anywhere.
so i could start afresh, start anew.
do something ive never done before,
do something that its not me.
i feel so caged up.
i feel so at lost.
cant anyone be there when i need them?
cant anyone see that everyday i just put on a smiling mask?
torn between the things that i should do
i wish i could soar like the eagle,
like what it used to be.
but the old days wont come back right?
some dont know the thin line between play and seriousness,
others dont know the meaning of true friendship.
i drifting away from all of you.
slowly.
but i dont see anyone helping me back;;
to be on the same ship as all of you.
im just confused,
i dont know what i did.
i wish i knew, too.
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Tuesday, April 13, 2004 \ 5:58 PM
YOU'RE CORDIALLY INVITED TO A NIGHT OF WORSHIP AT THE INDOOR STADIUM ON THE 15TH OF APRIL, THURSDAY AT 7.30PM. :) CONTACT ME IF YOU WNA GOyepyep my church is holding a night of worship at the stadium
hope everyone can turn up. its gna rock!
hehs.
anw,
ive an effing headache
and a big ching chong test toms.
and theres a big blotch of chemistry stuff on my school shirt.
ms lim was surprisingly nice to me today
and summary writing lesson was just plain boring.
go figure.
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Monday, April 12, 2004 \ 10:02 PM
While she lays sleepingI stay out late at night and play my songs
And sometimes all the nights can be so long
And it’s good when I finally make it home
All alone
While she lays dreamin’
I touch her face across the silver light
I see her dreams that drift up to the sky
And she wakes up to my kiss, and I say it’s alright
And I hold her tight
*Chorus*
And she believes in me
I’ll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday, if she was my girl
I could change the world
With my songs, I was wrong
But she has faith in me
And so I go on tryin’ faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I’ll hope and pray
I will find a way, find a way
While she lays waiting
I ask myself why do I hurt her so
What calls me on along this lonely road
Why don’t I turn around and head back home
Where I belong
While she lays cryin’
‘Cause she knows how my heart is ripped in two
I’m torn between the things that I should do
She deserves it all, and I’d give it if I could
God her love is true
‘Cause she believes in me
I’ll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday, if she was my girl
I could change the world
With my songs, but I was wrong
But she has faith in me
And so I go on tryin’ faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I’ll hope and pray
I will find a way, find a way
While she waits
While she waits
For me
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okay
i just bathed.
and i feel fresh and non-stinky.
hahah-
anyway had a shitty 16 minute 2.4 run just now.
thanks to me,
didnt eat & had gastric.
felt so shitty after that.
headache
and now ive got wobbly legs!
but thanks ANDY, CHERYN, LIZ, JO who were there for me
when i was literally down on the ground.
haha. love you guys..
first time ive seen andy so sweet.
now i know what TRUE FRIENDS are like :)
wenta swensens after that.
yumyum omelette & sinful sundaes :)
anywayy!
kuantan kinda rocked :)
i totally love the beeach!
& i cant wait til the day i go to tioman!
hahah-
ahh- the sand, the pool, the salty sea, the resort, the food :)
miss it already
lol
oh yeah had chem test today.
yes yes sharini the ms lim sucked your urine out.
lol-she deducted 3 marks frm sharinis test & 5 marks frm baz's for NO REASON.
that woman is weird.
i just did the stuff i knew, left the rest blank.
and slept.
darn tired.
like khai will say,
this is the most tiring day of the week!
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Friday, April 09, 2004 \ 7:39 PM
darling,
can u PLEASE hurry get back from that ulufied kuantan place
cause sg is boring without you man :(
good friday is so not good
and lets go towning next week ?
:))))
love you bestie.
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Thursday, April 08, 2004 \ 8:46 PM
This entry is kindly dedicated to Sharini who hasever-so-politely asked me to blog by saying
[irresistible] and then u cross my mind; again and again____ //cinderella says:
blog in
okay i had chinese oral today.i waited so long for lin lao shi.
ended up gettin my own chinese teacher.
hahah-
she kept goin very gd very gd.
but then again,
she was saying the same thing to jeremy & jaromes.
soo i dont really trust her very good anymore.
lol- ok then after that i slacked around until around 5.
with the twins & jiamin.
before goin to band for half an hour,
and then slacked again in the storeroom.
yepyep.
heard todays attendance was pretty poor.
haha..
anyway, im driving up to kuantan tomorrow for a weekend holiday.
sigh i dont know if i cant wait to go there,
or cant wait to get back.
what if he replies when im there? :(
ill just miss it!
oh yeah my yandao sanjog came online just now,
and he wanted to prove to me that canada's technology will not fail him.
lol. hes sucha funny guy. never fails to make me laugh since primary school!
he'll make a wonderful boyfriend :) right yandao? haha
dont smile to yourself now just becuz chiobu praise you ahh-
okay thats it for today i guess.
today was quite an uneventful day in school.
with sharini being her usual neat freak self,
sweeping the floor when it isnt her duty day. first of her kind ive seen.
junrong & i squabbling,
freddy & siying having nice talks together,
clara screaming away to everybody,
barry doing his "wah lau"s, "quite exciting" crap.
and dharwin hokkien-ing with barry.
wincern goin around with his presidentrubbish,
and hendi acting like his sidekick+excellent student.
edmund being his crazy self & arv being his gay self.
everybody sleeping.
ah i love my class :)
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hmm weird my pic was changed back to the old one just now.
hope it works now :)
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Wednesday, April 07, 2004 \ 11:18 PM
just came back from tuition.tired.
american idol was pretty bad just now except a few.
yepyep.
added a meter to see how many of you peeping at me blog ;p
anw time to sleep,
just came online to check some stuff. :)
nights.
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just watched poc.
passion of christ.
it was really..
i dont know. guess it kinda touched my heart.
was on the verge of crying but i didnt.
throughout the movie,
when i was watching the part where jesus was being whipped,
by those monstrous things and during the crucification.
i marvelled at the wonder of His love for us,
that he actually gave up His life and got tortured;
even though He was just a human being like us,
so that our sins will be forgiven.
It was so touching that even the man that was forced to carry the cross with jesus,
and called Him a condemned man in the first place,
fell down to his knees and believed in Him.
the people who tortured Jesus,
were just. incorrigible.
dont know how they even find pleasure in torturing someone.
laughing and hailing Him the king of worms.
what audacity.however u spell that word.
throughout the whole movie,
lots of questions ran through my mind.
like why would jesus be willing to be tortured?
why was He willing to give up His life for small little me?
alot of Whys that i was unable to answer.
and i could only come to one conclusion.
The only reason why He was willing to be tortured & die for me,
was that. simply,
just because:
He loves me. And forever He will :)
-"If the world hates you, remember it has hated Me first" Jesus Christ -
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oh god how could i forget~
papaya PRAISED me.
cuz i was the only one to hand up the graph book.
hahaha-
:D
cant believe i forgot that.
lol.
she should call my dad NOW.
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todays sports heats. gd luck to those who are taking part.
anyway highlight of the day : willie fell asleep standing up.
ill post up the pic once i get it.hahah
joker man-
oh yeah before i forget,
yesterdays science tuition was a flop.
they brought in this relief teacher for godknowswhatreasons.
he cant freakin teach man.
& he looks as well as speaks like a retard.
regret goin yesterday,
so did jo. right jo?
hahah- okok guess thats all for nw. will update when i remember stuff.
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Monday, April 05, 2004 \ 9:24 PM
was so bored just now i resorted to doing that.hahah.
i know i know,
you might be thinking.
why dont you go study for your PHYSICS TEST TOMORROW.
not in the mood i guess.
havin kwite a bad headache now.
arghs-
i love my recess clique and my class clique :)
toodles.
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went towning for awhile just now w khairul daddy,
WINDOW SHOPPING. as he would say;
to look for his girl's birthday prezzie.
talked to him about stuff,
different stuffs.
and for once i will say,
i bet every girl will wish she were his girlfriend.
so proud of my daddy-o. *hugs*
hahah-
met up w bernard for 2 minutes.hahah-
passed me the passion of christ vcd.
YAY.
finally get to watch,
and i dont need to leave me comp overnight to download
a pathetic part of the movie already right edmund?
its 20000 times more worth it now. haha :P
btw edmund youve been very cold towards me lately ahh-
nv tell me anything anymore! ignore me
im disappointed in you edmund ho wei loong.
u change overtwonights.
sigh-
*smile & waves at edmund*
hehs. okay thats abt it for today.
theres physics test tmr. groans
stacie orrico-i promise
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Sunday, April 04, 2004 \ 10:02 PM
today had youth in the morning.deacon said,
teenzeal is prolly gna be changed to a saturday evening,
in the NEW 6th floor "auditorium"
man. cant wait, more time means MORE WORSHIP! weehee.
:D absolutely loveee worshipping Him.
but was kinda pissed off by the little guys beside me and
the biatches behind me today during youth.
cant keep their bloody mouths shut & listen to the deacon cant they?
during prayer they were fiddling with their hps.
i bet they treat church like a playground.
pray for them to come to their freakin senses..
immatured lalas. bahh--
anyway slept really late last night. almost 3 am.
woke up for church at 8am this morning.
daryl came too. really gotta apologise for the noisy biatches around us
& the lack of space in the room. haha.
after main svc, i went to meet ryn & long-time-no-see ianZ.
(figure, i must emphasize on the Z cuz his nickname is longer than his real name. first of the kind ive seen )
today i basically went crazy, bonkers, outta my mind. hahah-
as usual you can see.
nv laugh soo much in sucha long time.
esp when i was readin his compo, felt so compelled to help him.
and when we were in sake.
oh i cant forget to mention i ran in heels, with a freakin tote bag.
to catch a bus 153.
just because
my dear darling cheryn needed to piss.
ah thats interesting aint it :)
haha my legs went wobbly by the time i reached,
and i think my heels lost their CG.
reached home around 8.30-
my very very dear yandao sanjog finally replied to my email.
havent spoken to him in months man.
havent seen him for 4 years! dig that.
he better come back this year as he promised us.
haha..6-5'00 reunionn! :D
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Saturday, April 03, 2004 \ 10:54 PM
band today sucked.but after that it was fun :D
hahah-
we were just practically takin pics of ourself using alvins cam.
yepyep :)
had so much laughter. u guys rock :D -mwwakk-
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Friday, April 02, 2004 \ 10:48 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO! E(:- gone with the windd`
Thursday, April 01, 2004 \ 9:47 PM
its utterly hot.the weather has been unmerciful towards us
residents of singapore.
i need a breath of american winter air!
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damn . i totally forgot abt my chinese compo.
now ponderin on whether i should do it.
sighs.
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okay i put the song on my blog already.
sorry huishan for copyin your song.
but its darn cute.
lol
anyway..
today was alright i guess
barry & jaromes didnt come to school.
barry was sick.
the guys were guessin what he was doin at home,
since larry & his parents were not around.
hahah.
ok im gona stop at that, not gna say wht their guesses were.
jaromes from wht i heard his hand got stung by a bee.
poor thing.
his hand was so swollen yesterday.
anw barry & jaromes : take care okay? :) cya guys soon!
highlight of the day :PAPAYA DIDNT COME.
woohoo.
hahah-
but we had our amath test nevertheless.
i could only do one question
and for question 2, only one person got the same ans as me.
TOEEE~
no wonder we're thumb&toe grpp.
haha
chinese spellin was kwite shit
cuz i didnt study
haha.
didnt have band today.
cuz contact time :)
had lunch w arvEEn, willie (weelee?) hahah and junrong.
was tryin ta disgust arv abt the video abt anoxeria however u spell tht
that he told me abt.
heard frm him that the girl actually vomitted.
picked up solid,
ate it.
den drank the vomit again.
hahah-
i wasnt disgusted cuz i didnt watch the vid.
but i was tryin my best to make arvin puke
by using the food he was eating.
oh yeah we were sayin the vomit probably looked like campbell
cream of mushroom soup.
haha- then i also asked him
"doesnt this bowl of dessert,
remind you of something?"
puttin in effort to make him puke.
unfortunately i failed.
but i did make him lose his appetite somehow.
:D
came home after tht.
was feelin kinda woozy on the bus.
but i got over it.
feeling normal now.
heh-
ill find something to do now.
cya-
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huishan currently has this super cute song on her blog.
go listen. hahah.
maybe ill put on my blog too.
its darn cute.
sounds like 2 lil kids singing.
lyrics here
baby i loved you
and ill never let you go
but if i have to
boy i think that you should noe
all the love we made
can never be erased
and i promise you that you will never be replaced
baby i loved you
and ill never let you go
but if i have to
boy i think that you should noe
all the love we made
can never be erased
and i promise you that you will never be replaced
i love you
yes i do
ill be with you as long as you want me to
until..the end..of time
from the day i met you
i knew we'd be together
and now i know i wanna be with you forever
i wanna marry you
and i wanna have your kids
thinkin never compares to the feelings of the kisses
i can say im truely happy to this day
you make me thank god that i live my life everyday
theres never been a doubt..in my mind
that i regret ever having you by my side
but if the day comes
that i have to let you go
i think theres something
that i should probably let you know
enjoyed everyday
that i spent with you
and i will miss you cuz im happy that i had you at all
baby i loved you and ill never let you go
but if i have to boy i think that you should know
the love we made
can never be erased
and i promise you that you will never be replaced
baby i loved you and ill never let you go
but if i have to boy i think that you should noe
all the love we made
can never be replaced
and i promise you that you will never be replaced
i love you
yes i do
ill be with you as long as you want me to
until..the end..of time
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